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How can I be so very busy with no “job” to attend all day?  Our whole day was busy doing something…. when would I have done that with my old job? 

Well I suppose I could have dropped of Kermit, and not watched him get on the bus when he asked me to stay. 

I suppose I could have not had coffee and talked to Grandma this morning for well over an hour.

I suppose I could have skipped lunch with dad and not talked about a plan to buy some land. 

I could have been about 2 hours later picking Kermit up from Grandma’s, (with my old job I would have been close to that).

I could have made Ravioli’s for dinner instead of sloppy joes from scratch with corn and bananas.

I could have sent them to bed with no bath and some play time, right after dinner.

I could have not read the library book that’s due back tomorrow.

But LUCKY for me, I didn’t have to.  I got to do EXACTLY what it is that I wanted to do today. I got to have time and patience with the kids and go at their speed instead of my normal rush, rush, rush. 

We are slowly moving into a different routine.  For example, I still haven’t done the laundry this week because I have “all the time in the world”.   But since they still have clean clothes I’m not too worried about it.  I also have some other things to check off my list but since I’m pregnant and moving furniture is frowned on, I need to wait for help.

Tomorrow will be more running around, but at least I get to spend the day doing it with Pink instead of for someone else.

I love my “job”, no wait, my retirement!

The Soundtrack to My Day

By You — Sit by you

Tank — Thanks

Panky — Spanky the Dog

Gookie — Nukkie

Ear-a-go — Here you go

Mermit — Kermit

Men-a-min — Medicine

Peas — Please

Quash — Squash

Goo-ness — Goodness

Jammies, Bus, Amma, Poops, Ank You,  Daddy, Baby

What does the pig say?  Pink’s answer:  LA LA LA (like when Babe the Pig sings on the movie “Babe”)

Tomorrow I will pay closer attention.  She says so many many cute things but of course now I can’t think of hardly any.

Today was a bit on the low key side.  We dropped Kermit off for school then, talked to Grandma for a while.  When we go home I cleaned all the garbage out of the truck then made squash.  Nap and back to pick up Kermit, thus the post about the cute things she says.  Way more interesting than our real day.

This is the first day of the rest of my life.

One 5.5 year old, one 2 year old and pregnant due in January, just quit my job, living in a rental house, we are pretty sure they sold and needing to move in probably 30 days.  Todd is working out of town/state for extended periods of time.

I am FINALLY going to get a shot at being the mom always I wanted to be.  I get to drop Kermit off at the bus stop and be there when he gets off.  I get to spend the day with Pink doing what ever it is we want to do.  I get a chance to blog about how wonderful they are for my own memories and make their Halloween costumes.  I’m going to get to have dinner on the table at a decent time and cook from recipes. I’m going to get to take extra time to have patience and not yell because we are in a hurry.  Clip coupons and use them. Volunteer at school and go on field trips.  Stop by and have lunch with my mom and my grandma.  Maybe spend more time doing photography if I can figure out how to afford the camera I really want.  Or learn the features and functions of the one I do have. 

I’ve never been more excited and scared to start a phase in my life.  I suppose most of it is the lack of my own paycheck.  I have always had my own money.  Todd had his.  We split the house bills and paid accordingly.  You pay this one, I’ll pay that one.  We didn’t have joint checking.  If I wanted new clothes, I didn’t have to check with Todd.  Nor did he check with me over new golf shoes.  The other always knew of the purchase, they weren’t secret, but we didn’t have to figure it in to the budget.   Now, our whole family is relying on Todd.  There is no back up option, no extra money from my job (not that there was much extra to begin with). 

The first day of the rest of my life consisted of taking Kermit to Grandma’s to get on the bus.  Getting the mail at the PO box, going to the bank and getting some groceries for Grandma. Then we went back to her house, had a roll and fixed her hair.  Then home to do a few minutes of work for Todd.  Then lunch and play time, snuggle time and almost nap time before my brothers came over.  We left to pick up Kermit then hit McDonald’s (on dad) and came home to eat and play.  They were here all afternoon.  Then dad came to get them.  Under normal circumstances, this would have never been possible.   The boys all did their homework together.  Old us would have been trying to wolf down dinner while we do homework alone and get in bed by 7:30 after getting home at about 7:15.   I love the new schedule or lack their of. 

I always felt like before I was a better mom on weekends.  Maybe all mom’s feel this way.  I had more time, more patience, more energy.  I felt like I was more fun and loving.  Now I get to be that mom, EVERY day. 

On my list of things to tackle on what I have been lovingly calling Retirement…. figuring out how to change my header.  The program I had and was using was wiped off our crappy laptop when we had to restore.  Now, I have no idea what to do with it.  But I do have all the time in the world.

Dear Kermit, Pink and Green:  I couldn’t be more happy with my decision to put you guys first in life.  I was not doing that and I’m sorry.  You suffered and I can’t go back and do it over, but I can make up for going forward.  I promise to listen to your stories more and let you take longer tubbies.  I promise to color and play play-doh.  I won’t care if we make a mess and I will wash all the bu-bu’s all the time so they are clean.  I will be the mom you deserve.

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! 

And I love Todd, for allowing me the pleasure of raising our kiddles.

Love, Mama.

El Doctoro Update: 17 weeks of Baby Green

So I went to the doctor yesterday for a 16 week (BTW I’m 17 weeks) check up.  They checked my blood pressure and it was high.  Moving right along, they checked my pulse, weight (BOOYA I’m down a pound…. for now) etc. etc.  The nurse thought that my BP being a bit high was strange, so she checked again.  Lower than the first time, but still too high for her liking.  My doctor came in, did her normal thing, we talked about the randomness of my BP being high.  I am usually the poster child for good blood pressure.  I’ve never been told it’s high. They always say “120/80 GOOD”.  Dr. Akram talked about what could cause it, how they don’t like to diagnose anything this early, blah-dee-blah, we’ll check it again before you go.  I  had to go upstairs for some blood work anyways so if they were going to do extra labs it was no big deal.  They checked again and it was 132/92 (this is the only one I remember lower than the first 2).  Not crazy high, but not what they like.  So upstairs I go (was going anyways).  Draw extra blood and oh Dr. Akram wanted me to do leave a urine sample (to check for protein — which UPDATE there was none, GOOD) and she decided that I should do a 24 hour urine test.  What this means is they give a gallon jug that I get to pee in for 24 hours, and keep in my fridge next to my milk and then bring it back to them. UGH GROSS.  Baby Green YOU OWE ME!.

So Sunday I’ll pee in the jug all day, and Monday I will bring it back to them when I go to the Lab for a 3 hour glucose test.  I HATE the 3 hour test.  I already know what the outcome will be.  It will end in me having Gestational Diabetes.  I know this because I had it with both of the other kids, and there is no way I’m getting around it.  It’s impossible.  So I will drink gross orange pop/juice and sit for 3 hours in an uncomfortable chair waiting for me to fail the test, the one I know I failed before I walked in.

Again Baby Green are you listening — YOU OWE ME!  However the good news of yesterday was that we (I) scheduled  the ultra sound where we get to find out if Baby Green is really Blue or Pink.  I’m really looking forward to finding out.  I don’t like to pick out names until we know the sex.  It makes it easier to focus on one gender versus both. Plus Green will be the deciding factor of the majority in the house.  We are divided down the middle right now.

So until Monday, when they will recheck my blood pressure and I will drink gross orange juice…… or until Sunday when I get to pee in a jug….. YEAH!

Can you hear me in the back?

March, July, potato, pa-ta-toe.  Hello, just a quick check in to let you know that I’m really good at this blogging stuff.

House is moving along, sort of.  We have a SURVEY!  And some stakes in the ground.  We have not moved any dirt yet, but added 10 acres to what we were going to buy.  It made the county stuff much easier.  With 10 acres, we have to prelim plat, final plat, blah blah I don’t even know.  It’s like we are developing an entire subdivision instead of building 1 house on a small piece of farm land in the middle of NO WHERE.   With 20 acres, we do an Administrative Land split.  It saves us a TON in county fees and surveying. Plus we get more land to call our own.

Pink’s birthday is coming up in a week.  2. Did you hear me?!  She’s going to be 2! AGH!  We (and by we, I mean I) are planning a small birthday party, and my idea of small is never small.  I try to keep it small but instead of ordering 25 invites, I ended up hitting the 50 button.  WTF?  So they can’t go to waste right? So I must invite at LEAST that many people to our house to cook for and entertain them!  I’m a dummy. It will be fun, it will be fun, it will be fun…..  Every year I swear it will be smaller next year.

Last night all the boys, Kermit and my 3 brothers, Max, Leo and Roman all got MOHAWKS!  They are awesome. Todd is less than thrilled.  Kermit was nervous it wouldn’t grow back, but found out it would and was ready to rock!  I think it’s cute.  After it was too late, and they had started buzzing, I had to wonder a bit if it would be grown out enough by the time school pictures come around in the fall.  Or should I say, in about 6 weeks.

Ok so now I should be working, but in case I go to the dark side of the moon again, I mean WHEN I go to the dark side of the moon, just know that I’m going to start doing a 1 sentence journal each day dedicated to each kid and sometimes I might share them with you.  This means that even though you don’t always get to ready what I’m writing, just pretend that I’m sharing it with you because I’m a giver like that.  Journaling, it’s the 80’s version of a blog.  And we all know how good I am at the latter….. Oh shut up!

I’m really good at changing my blog header…..

I just can’t keep up. With the move, and then the settling in and the crappy service at our new/temporary home I can’t seem to make the time to make a new header. Add to that some extra meetings I have been doing and a sort of quick/surprise trip to Dallas, we’ve been a bit busy.

Dallas was TONS of fun. I have some pictures to share also, but sadly they are on my camera which is located at home at the moment. Another day…. I went to an 80’s party! BIG hair, and LOTS of blue eye shadow. I also met a girl with the same shirt as me. We instantly became new friends. I got to have coffee with an old friend from high school. He’s so different, yet so very much the same. OH HOW I MISSED HIM. I’m sure it was no different for him, I’m probably very different, but yet the same. I don’t know how that is even possible, but it is.

I missed my babes terribly! 4 days seemed like an eternity. Todd was holding down the fort while I was gone. I didn’t worry about anything, but that doesn’t make me miss they any less.

Well, I suppose back to the task at hand. I WILL get those pictures of 80’s night up shortly. They are HIlarious!!!

MA MA!!!

You’ll understand after watching THIS. (Still trying to to figure out how to embed the goofy video.)

Dancing Baby!

I’m still working on how to embed this video here, but for now click over and watch it.

Dancing Baby!

A is for Adorable

Pink:  In the last week or so your vocabulary has expanded a ton.  You used to YELL and SQUEAL a lot.  But lately you have been actually trying to communicate with us.  You say things like “Go.          GOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!”  Meaning, “Here you go.  (pause for about 3 seconds)  HERE YOU GOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!” If I don’t reach to get your sippy cup RIGHT.AWAY! I get the second GOOOOOOOO!!!!

Then there is Buppy.  This means either PUPPY!! or Uppy.

Also on our list of new words are:  Papple (apple) Ishie (you’ve known this one for a while, but are using it more frequently), Blue (Kermit), A-tee (Auntie), Eye, NO-ssse.

It’s so much fun to watch you at this stage.  Last night we were having dinner and you decided to dump your entire plate of food on the floor.  I picked it up.  Picked up most of the food, gave your had a little smack and said NO.  Then I put you on the floor and told you to “Go to your room.”  Then I turned to Daddy and we both giggled knowing what was coming.  You first go and get your blanket.  Then you pout and whimper a bit, then you make the trek up the stairs.  The stairs at our new place are fairly steep, so you have a hard time dragging your blanket and you up them.  But you trek thru and make it to the top, wander down then hall and into your room.  By now, you have forgotten what you were suppose to be doing so you turn around and come back out to the top of the stairs, happy as can be so of course we let you come back down.  Your persistance to get to the top of the stairs with your blanket is fantastic.  You are very stubborn.

I love that more and more each day your personality comes out.  You are so very different from Kermit.  It’s a joy and an interesting experience to watch and raise such 2 different people.  But at the end of the day you guys are best friends.  You are stubborn and smiley, busy and fearless.  Kermit is soft and gentle, yet determined and feisty. 

I don’t know how I could love either of you more, but I do each day.  I LOVE YOU BLUE AND PINK!!

Sunshine on a Cloudy Day

Yesterday on our way home from daycare Kermit told me that Bella had her “Rainy Face” on and that he had his “Sunshine Face” on.  Then later at dinner he was bucky about something and I asked him if it was his Rainy Face.  He said “No this is my Cloudy Face.”  I said “Why don’t you put on your Sunshine Face.”  Then a big smirk crossed his face and he didn’t know what to say.

What a great way to look at life dear young one.  I was suprised by this analogy of the different feelings that we have. 

Kermit: You also asked me yesterday if we could go to the waterpark.  I told you that I had to work, but maybe on Saturday.  It got me to thinking about the life moves I’m making.  I’m excited that pretty soon, ALL of our days will be SATURDAY’S.  I’ve had my fill of dropping you off at daycare and picking you up at the end of the day.  I’m missing so much of your life and I don’t like it.  I love you too much.  I swear this to you, Kermit and Bella, SOON all of our days will be Saturday’s.